nakakainis isipin!

hayz.. naiinis ako today promise! 

naiinis ako sa mga bagay na ngyayari ng biglaan at mabilisan.

naiinis ako sa kadahilanang sa pagiging mabait ko ay may mga taong maaring gustuhin ka ng disinasadya.

 naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil naging pabaya at nagpadala ako sa sitwasyon!

 naiinis ako sa mga taong walang magawa kundi makisawsaw sa sitwasyon ng may sitwasyon!

naiinis ako sa isang tao na di marunong tumimbang at basta na lamang pumasok sa isang lugar ng di man lang kumakatok.

naiinis akong isipin na sa dami dami ng tao sa mundo ako pa ang napaagdiskitahan nya!

naiinis ako sa mga pangyayaring hindi ko napagisipan pero nagdesisyon ako.,

naiinis ako sa lahat ng tao na nagpupumilit na intindihan ang sitwasyon pero di namn seryoso.

higit akong naiinis sa sarili ko dahil kinakailangan ko magpadala sa bugso ng inis ko.

at sa araw na ito walang sinuman ang makakatanggal ng inis ko kundi ako lang.

 naiinis ako sa isiping hinayaan ko yung isang tao na yun naguluhin ang katahimikan ko!

 subalit dahil dun ay marami akong napatanto ang di ko lng mapapayagan ang hayagang pagsasalita ng di maganda sa talikurang paraan.

hindi ko hangad ang makasakit or may masaktan.

hindi ko rin xa masisi kung yung ang kanya madama pero ang pakiusap ko lang namn ay maging patas ka at harapin mo yung gulong ikaw mismo ang nagpasimula. huwag kang matakot sa isangdesisyon na pagsisihan mo sa huli. napagtanto ko na kung saan ako nagkamali at kahit anung mangyari itutuwid at makakabawi ako. at ang inis na ito ay mapapalitan ng isang masayang ngiting nagsasabi na ganyan talaga ang buhay, lahat ay kailangan mo maranasan para mas maging maunawaiin at makataong pakikibagay. nabuwag mo man ang pader na aking itinayo sa muling pagbangon nito tiyak kong mas matibay at detelyado ang pagkakagawa kaya kung ako ikaw! maging totoo ka lng sa sarili mo at makikita mo ang talagang nakalaan para sa iyo.. ang hionahangad ng puso mo. sa nagyon kasi dapat tayong tumingin sa hinaharap hindi sa kung anu lang ang meron tayo ngayon. 

Thought And Angst: Crush

Thought And Angst: Crush

letter to god

Letters to God film is a bout an eight years old extraordinary boy name Tyler Doherty who faces his daily battle against cancer with bravery and grace. With a loving family in his side Tyler never fear death and never forget to say his prayer in the form of letter which he daily writes. The letter found its destination in Brandy McDaniels hands, a postman who is suffering from alcohol abuse and dispirited by divorce. As McDaniel receives the letters he feels confused and conflicted thinking what to do with the letters. But later he finds him self forming a new friendship with the Doherty family and getting to know the letter sender Tyler and so to his family. McDaniel feels mesmerized of the family courage on how they face and trying to stand strong against doubts that come over Tyler’s cancer. With this realization an idea blink to McDaniel mind knowing what he must do with the letters, this idea will make everybody happy and so as he.

One of a kind film that will teach us leasons in life, on why we should give value our life. Not all of us is a lucky one enjoying world’s beauty in life long; some might never given a chance to see what we see.

It is a worth watching movie an aspiring one. We need to keep hold on what we believe. And always believe that god is there even in our darkest time.

lumbay

Narinig mo na ba ang salitang lumbay??

Ang lumbay ay kasingkahulugan ng kalungkutan.

Ito ay salitang tagalog nakalimitan lamang ginagamit ng mga tao 

sa kadahilanan na nasanay tayo sa mga hiram na salita na ating ginagamit.

Lumbay o lungkot ang salitang sumasalarawan sa ating damdaming kungsaan nakakaramdam tayo ng sakit, panibugho, pagkainis, walang gana at panghihinayang sa mga bagay na ginagawa natin. marami tayong ikinalulungkot sa buhay maaring dahil sa pagkawa lng ating mga mahal sa buhay, pagkakaron ng kaaway o kaya naman ay pagbagsak sa isang klase. Mahirap man itong tanggapin sa huli matutunan rin natin itong kalimutan at muling makabangon muli. Sa buhay marami na akong pinghinayangan at pinaglagpas na magagandang pagkakataon dahil mas inuna ko ang pagiging malungkot at piniling magisa. Inaamin ko na sa aking sarili na hindi ako kasing husay ng iba, maganda tulad ng iba o kaya ay matalino.... Sa totoo lang hindi ko alam kung saan ba ako nababagay at kung ano ang mga gusto at ayaw kong gawin. Hanggang sa ngayon wala parin akong ideya. Madalas akong malungkot at magisip ng mga negatibong bagay, tingin ko nga isa na yun sa pampalipas ko ng oras. Tingin ko kasi masyadong maraming ginagawa ang lahat para bigyan ako nang atensiyon kung kaya mas madalas nanahimik na lamang ako, kahit na sa totoo lang marami akong nais itanong at ikwento. ganun talaga siguro ang buhay noh.... Kailangan mo rin magisa upang matuto kang mamuhay at tumayo sa iyonh sariling paa. Madalas ko ngang itanong sa sarili ko bakit, ba ako nagaaral, dahil ba kailangan ko yun para magkaroon ng magandang kinabukasan o para lang sa aking magulang upang sila ay matuwa at masabing ako ay isang mabuting anak? Ano pa ba?? Hayz hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. Ang dami ko nang nasabi pero ang isang dahialn lang naman ay ang isang pagsususlit sa logic circuits na hindi ko talga nasagutan ng tama at maayos kung kaya ngayon, na nagamba na ako nang sobra dahil sa ibang seksyon pa ako na padpad. Natatakot ako na hindi ako makasurvive at nakakapanghinayang talaga ang lahat, oras, pera, pagaaral mo sa leksyon na yun kung yun lang din ang mangyayari. Alam kong masyado pang maaga para sabihin yun pero yun ang nakikita kong mangyayari sa hinaharap kung di ko pagbubutihan ng maigi. Hindi ko alam kung bakit, Apat na taon na ako sa bokasyong ito ngunit, datapwa't subalit ayoko pa rin sa kanya, inaamin ko rin na hindi ko gusto ang matematika ngunit kakambal na ito ng aking pagaaral, anu pa nga ba ang magagawa ko kundi tanggapin at gampanan ng maluwag sa aking puso't isipan ang aking obligasyon bilang estudyante upang sa ikakaligaya ng aking butihing magulang at kapatid.. Naway bigyan sana ako nang maykapal ng isang daan na makakapagbigay tulong na maabot ko ang aking minimithing makataposa ng aking pagaaral sa itinakdang panahon at oras....Ikinagalak kung maramdam muli ang damdaming ito dahil pinalalakas nito ang aking pagnanasang magtagumpay, di susuko sa anumang balakit na nagbabayang dumating........

How to Be Happy with Who You Are

• It's important to bear in mind that every human being in this world is different, and no two faces or bodies are the same. Your 'inferiority' as you may refer to it can also be seen as a unique or individual quality. What makes you feel these things are 'inferior' to everyone else? If there is no norm amongst human beings, how can there possibly be any form of inferiority? Don't give the power of influencing your thoughts to people that don't care about you.

• Understand that most people aren't out there to judge you. Out of everyone you see, most don't care or know about how poorly you did on your last math test, or how you've gained a little weight since last summer.

• Seriously consider just what is so 'inferior'. If you have a complex about a specific body part, such as your arms, legs, feet, or hands, think hard about what exactly makes them 'inferior' to everyone else, and write this on paper if it helps. Seriously think about the logic of these things. You're not going to get stopped in the street for having what you think of as 'inferior' hands or feet.
• Nobody's perfect. They say the grass is always greener on someone else's yard. If there's always someone out there with more money than you, or prettier than you, realize there's always someone uglier than you. There's someone with a bigger nose or heftier than you. There's someone with even smaller or larger breasts than you. Don't focus so much on how you can't compare, but how others can't compare to you.

• Think about what it is you are really afraid of. What is it you fear will happen, upon the revealing of your inferiority to everyone else? Do you fear people looking, or making comments? These are all valid worries but bear in mind - everyone is different. Any comments you receive are invalid and must be ignored at all costs. It's absolutely certain there is something they think is wrong with them too.

• If you find your inferiority difficult to deal with, enlist the help of a friend. Good friends will help you achieve your goals, whatever they may be. For limbs it may be to eventually be able to walk around in shorts (for leg complexes). Good friends will tell you the truth, and you can work together on ways to make you feel better about yourself. If you find it difficult to talk with friends, ask them if they ever feel inferior, and you may be surprised how worried people get.

• REMEMBER, you are NOT alone!

• See a counselor. If you feel 'inferior', and cannot seriously enlist the help of a friend for whatever reason, remember all of the above, and perhaps you can talk to a counselor if need be. If you have a close friend, they can also help you.

• If it helps, examine other people (not obvious staring.) How do they react to their body? How do they show themselves? Do they have a similar body type to you? This could really help you reach your goals.
• Respect yourself. Look in the mirror and give yourself compliments. If you don't respect yourself, who will?

• To be really happy all the time is not only impossible but unrealistic,but you can make a conscious effort to be happy all the time. However, to be really happy you need to accept yourself for who you are. Listen, nobody is perfect. 

• Spend time thinking about your strengths (everyone has them)and you will find yourself more happy, and also more confident!

• Lastly, don't concentrate too much on yourself. Get interested in others and you will see all your fears and worries which make you sad melt away.

• Happiness is beautiful. A smile is much more beautiful than a frown. This may not be a real step, but don't ever frown!

empty princess

there was a girl name empty princess. that girl is always have a pessimist mind. she always feeling depress and unnoticed by the other people who around her even she had a good trusted friends. she always like to separate herself to anyone, she likes to be a loner; something like that. Sometimes she do what she wants even though other people get hurt, just to be satisfied. careless and stubborn this princess, she manage to help her parents and friends when they have problems. the princess has an insecurity towards what other have and do. she has a low self steam. she what to hide herself in the finest dark room with a strong barrier that no one can break it.... she want to go alone in that huge dark room of he heart. there's no space for a blooming lovable smile plaster in her face. she get frustrated and being annoy when other do something that she don't like, even if is a simple joke. she take lot of situation seriously. she always entertain frustration images when she can attain or fulfill her goal. like when she didn't passed the piano lesson and end the end it look like a dead plant. disappointing is the best word that describe the feeling of the princess because whatever she do how she get dedicated to what she desired therefore she always invest still pressure vanish it and turn it to nightmare. otherwise if the princess keep believing on what her skill, the capabilities to learned she can do it. dont give up its too early to stop we had a long journey; a new chapter to start. so don't waste it there's no room for that. do what you think is good for you. just wait and you will see how your investment turn on. you to be focus and believe on your self. trust your inner self is the first step to your success.... 

Confused

My class for today is Comp org. It start at 7:30 am but my professor was arrive late.
The moment I confirmed tha he is my instructor for the whole semester I was confused because I know that he is good in programming so he is expected that we are know how to deal with it. Actually I'm scared to take the subject coz I'm not good as he expect. And I need to catch up all the things he discussed on the board. As my mind said I can't do that. I need much time to analyze and to process on my brain what he mean. Because of that I feel so sad, confused, hesitate and frustrated. Keep asking  myself if I can do or not, Maybe I need to force myself to do it or else I'm dead!!
On the other hand I need to focus on that subject to conquer all my negative thoughts. Even it is unnecessarily to avoid that idea. This subject is ones a week, so it takes long hours; almost six hours it was a combination of lecture and laboratory. First class we had a quiz but the result of the quiz is disaster. There is some point that I didn't gets what the things to be needed. He give us an early dismissal but it only for today. I'm sure next week when he start the proper lesson it so accurate and needed full attention for you to understand everything. When I think about this it gives me a hard head ache..... That is  the thing that i want to avoid!!!
HayZZZZZZZZZZZZ
I don't know what to do...
Please, someone help me....
I hates to see things in this situation...
Maybe I felt this way coz I was so exhaust about everything happened at this moment....  
I want to give up but it was too early to give up...
Bahala na nga!!!
go for the gold!!!!